Tuesday, March 8, 2011

When I Pray at Night...

Is it fair? Is it fair that I have to live in a world of calorie counting? Probably not. But every once in a while I have moments of clarity. Moments where I realize that even my super fit friend Emily still works out and eats properly. She's very slim, but she still stays on the ball. She still works at it. Those moments also come with the realization that yeah, it's not fair & it sucks but that's how it is. It's a reality that I have to deal with.

And if there is one role that I refuse to play, it's that of victim. It always has been. One of my biggest pet pieves is people who complain about something in their life but do nothing to change it. Which is why you'll have heard me crack jokes about my weight... bc I don't want to complain about it. I got to this point in my life through poor choices.

I wish that I had started working out at a younger age, I wish that someone had told me at 17 that 10 years from now you are going to wish that you worked a little harder in gym class.

When I pray at night I go through the really important things. I pray for those in termoil in the Middle East. I pray for our soldiers. I pray for the children here in the US who are going to sleep with hungry bellies. I pray for the teenagers who need someone to talk to, who think their is no other way out. I pray for the families that have lost people, that they may find some form of peace. I pray for the people who have passed, that they are chillin' with J.C.

And finally at the end of my prayers I asked God for just a little help with strength. Strength to keep eating better & strength to turn my car towards the gym instead of home at the end of the day. When I was little I used to pray that I would wake up skinny. Haha. What's that about J.C? Why couldn't you do that for me?

Anyway, my friend Emster has helped me to realized what a good workout regime is and reminded me to switch it up. She also got me hooked on a website called http://www.myfitnesspal.com/. It tracks my calorie intake and my calories burned and helps me keep the balance. So according to what I ate and worked out yesterday I should loose just over 10 pounds in 5 weeks. Hold me to it followers... I want to be a a healthier, STRONGER me.


  1. I wish you so much luck, but remember, losing those ten pounds isn't the hardest part. Believe me, I know. I've lost ten pounds about 15 times now...

  2. Girl, your AMAZING just the way you are........